Obsession

Am I obsessed? All I do everyday is think about my weight and then I get all depressed and eat anything I can get my hands on.

If it was not for those damn pills I took I would have been a size XS! But now I am a size M bodering on L in some stuff. I hate it.

Weirdly enough, I can't bring myself to starve myself, I have to eat or I feel really shaky. I also have to start gym, I will this month, winter is almost over and I have to have a lovely body!

So what am I doing about my dilemma....

- Eat less, at least 1000 calories a day (that is not bad at all)
- Read, read read, blogs, websites etc to educate myself and get info on what worked for others
- Excercise at least 40 minutes of cardio and some free weights

I have been visiting some anorexic girls sites, not that I am pro anorexia but I was just reading about what extreme methods they use, which will not work for me but I also feel really sorry for them! They try so hard!

Love yah....

PS. on the ana websites, they have "Thinspiration", someone they aspire look like.... here is mine :)